here comes "that day" again

I can be your liar
I can be your bearer of bad news
Sick and uninspired by the diamonds in your fire
Burning like a flame inside of you
But is this just desire or the truth

So shame on me for the ruse
Shame on me for the blues
Another one returned that I'll never use

I won't go getting tired of you
I won't go getting tired of you
I'm not getting tired
I won't go getting tired of you
I won't go getting tired of you
I m not getting tired

Hanging on this wire
Waiting for the day I have to choose
Cursed by love so dire
One more boy for hire
One more boy to lend a hand to you
But is this just desire or the truth


-Foo Fighters


Speaking of sick and uninspired. How about today? Officially it is valentines day but the day that I am speaking of tuesday the 13th. It just turned out to be one of those days that just really made me want to fucking scream.
The whole day was overcast, my ankle was fucked up from last night, and a couple of times it started to rain. Weather always seems to have an effect on a person's mood and today was just the prime example. Not only is rain kind of shitty when it's cold and overcast outside, but if you have ever ridden your bike in the rain then you would know how lame and wet that can be as well. The wind goes through the zipper on the jacket as the cold constant wind wraps around your body and exits the bottom of your coat. The rain drops sting as your hands slowly go numb and cold.
Personal matters stack with natural matters to compound the shittiness. Thankfully nothing has progressed past the friend stage because I would feel like an episode of Jerry Springer if I wasn't. If things had progressed past that stage earlier, then I probablly wouldn't find myself in this situation now. If talking to and getting to know one girl with any success isn't hard enough, what happens when in pursuit of one, you in some odd way, end up with a second crush or potential match?
Friends, I have found myself in that very situation. In pursuit of one very confusing and amazing girl, I ended up falling for the friend which is equally confusing and amazing. I'm to the point where I'm confused about who I like more. Who should I pursue and who should I leave behind? If I continue with the first, I just hope that I haven't put blinders on to miss out on the other people. Such are the complications of life leading to my state of being sick and uninspired.