Who had a merry fucking valentines day? It was a day, just another day for me. Since I spent the entire night before v-day writing a paper, I only had to wake up, wander into class 30 min late, sleep for the remaining 30 minutes and then turn in some assignments and fall asleep again when I got to my room. I woke up at 3:00 pm and bullshitted my time until my dad came to picke me up at 6:00. We met my mom at Ten Ten restaurant which was better than any other time that I had been there interesting enough. Usually Ten Ten has a sub par selection of luke warm food. This time the had pork dumplings and orange beef with death peppers, YUM! After dinner, my dad and I went to the Salvation Army community center just like I have been doing since the new year. I led a practice with the kids which are always frustrating to deal with since some of them have the attention spans of goldfish or Leonard from Memento and it's just so damn hard to get anything done. After I returned home, I just got bored. It seemed that everyone had something to do and somewhere to be with their valentine. Just to see who else was in my boat I turned on vent to see who else was sitting home just like me. Just being out to the restaurant and seeing everyon paired up wherever I was just makes you feel a bit lonely. I know that v-day is just like anyother day except all the couples get together and go out. It's like a designated couples date night. For me, I just got a feeling of outcast from the whole business. Since everyone else is out with their significant other it just has that much more effect since all your buddies arn't hanging around and you're left alone. You feel like there is something missing when there really isn't anything missing at all and you can't do anything about it. As much as I want to think that this day is just like any other, it really isn't. Christmas seems more like any other day than v-day. Halloween, Thanksgiving, July 4, and any other holliday are more like any other than v-day. For those with another, it's a time for romance and celebration of their close relationship. For those like myself, it's like theres a party happeining over there and everyone is invited but you. You know it, and you hate it, and you feel left out. That is why valentines day is unlike anyother holliday. It's the only day holliday that you can get left out of, and no one wants to feel left out.
Maybe I can get to know that softball chick and make up for lost valentines? Who am I kidding though, I have the worst time getting together with people unless they are in close proximity to me. Man I need a car so I can increase my range of proximity.
